fate

noun

-the development of events beyond a person's control
verb
- be destined to happen, turn out, or act in a particular way

what does it really mean? what is meant to happen and what is ultimately in our own control. or is it both? and how much has this idea changed with the current age of technology. this word has been on the tongue recently in multiple conversations. the way people can come in and out of my life. there has been a lot of thought processing going on through working with different people at my school and it is opening up so many new windows to my soul. i am very grateful.

"There is an unseen life that dreams us. It knows our true direction and destiny. We can trust ourselves more than we realize and we need have no fear of change. "

//John O’Donohue

cycles

i catch myself in a whirlwind of repetition. i found a few of my old journals from college and it is very interesting to read. how far i have come, yet how i remain so stuck at the same time. every year i gain new perspective and eventually i will get it. i know i will. but for now i have to learn to be patient with myself. to not create an atmosphere of judgement in my thoughts. to start giving/listening to my own advice. 

“The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive.” Eckhart Tolle

as we all know it is so much easier said then done, but why does it have to be? what is it that i am looking for or not looking for? the void that holds me back . what created these walls in my life. the feeling of being jaded. what keeps me from letting go? from getting close to people. life is indeed a process. out of the billions of people in the world i cross paths with the exact people that are meant to teach me something, to change me. i want to become a yes person. to every opportunity that arises. open my eyes

“By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond winning.” Lao Tzu

Christmas town!

Get on board YOUR LIFE this holiday season! Now that's a slogan I can (need to) hop on. Don't let that train pass you by. So often I tell myself , 'i'll just catch the next one.' But You are the only one that can create excuses for yourself. Just remember that it's not always beneficial to stay in that comfort zone. Every moment of every day we have the decision to be happy. To do exactly what we want to be doing. And to not feel bad about it. To, with out comparison and with out judgement, understand that there is no right or wrong. It's all about what you are passionate about. What makes you tick. And don't feel like you have to know exactly how to make it happen. Follow your intuition. 'We learn the way on the way!' Don't put it off. 

One of my favorite quotes, 

"every passing minute is a another chance to turn it all around." //vanilla sky

shanti

Words

"The words you tell yourself become the house you live in. Choose wisely what words you brainwash yourself with every day, are they words of love and care, or are they negative stories that deprive you from being the strongest version of yourself."  //iheartintelligence.com

my time

"Wherever You Go, There You Are" //Jon Kabat-Zinn

i  have been experimenting with meditation. its my attempt at slowing my mind. at calming myself. and i do it as soon as i wake up. to set the tone of the day. this has been going on for maybe 3 months now and i like it. the definition of meditation has changed a lot over this short period of time. the frigid air in my apartment has a lot to do with whether or not i do meditation in bed or actually get up, and walk downstairs into the one warm room in our place that my sister usually has preheated for me most mornings.

but i have learned that i dont have to get up as soon as my alarm goes off for it to count. meditation is a conscious thing and it can be at any point in my day even if for 1 minute or even a few seconds of deep breaths to re center myself. that quote up there by jon kabat-zinn has taught me a lot of this. thats the name of a book he wrote. i recommend it highly. if you have ever tried meditation and have given up bc you didnt feel like it was working or you didnt know if you were 'doing it right' , please read this book. because its not about right or wrong, its about how you are feeling in that moment. self care. acceptance- good or bad. processing thoughts, or not. breathing. 

take the time for yourself. you deserve it.

shanti

my little path in the city

“Instead of wondering when your next vacation is, maybe you should set up a life you don't need to escape from.” // Seth Godin

good morning world. my blogging days have been in hibernation for quite awhile now. over two years! i had become quite picky with my choices of what i thought i should post on here, but what ended up happening was that i lost my sense of expression. my communication with self. i want to change that this upcoming  year. as i begin to turn my life around in so many ways. i want to start with daily posts. maybe of a picture, a quote, or a recipe- and unfold for you, but mainly for myself, what my life looks like these days.

as the winter creeps nearer i find myself being ok with staying in . keeping warm by the (electric heater) fire. but even though i have not been distracting myself with adventure and exploring this new city, i have been far from productive. as you may or may not know i started a health coaching certificate program in september. Institute for integrative nutrition. it has been indeed life changing in so many ways. perspective tweeking and self care awareness have been 2 main focuses. my goal is to create routine and learn to live in the moment. to see the positive and not dwell on the future or what i am not doing. the path is very intriguing and i am up for the challenge. ill take back what i said, i have been productive. (another thing im working on , small changes) i am working towards a life style shift. and what that means i am not always so sure of. but i am headed there. i have to constantly remind myself to focus on the journey, not the destination.

shanti