26 July 2005
"i want to keep my soul fertile for the changes, so this keep getting born in me, so things keep dying when it is time for things to die. i want to keep walking away from the person i was a moment ago, because a mind was made to figure things out, not to read the same page recurrently"
"everything we were is no more, and what we will become, will become what was. this is from where story stems; the stuff of its construction lying at our feet like cut strips of philosophy. i sometimes look into the endless heavens, the cosmos of which we cant find the edge, and ask God what it means. did you really do all this to dazzle us? do you really keep it shifting, rolling round the pinions to stave off boredom? God forbid we Your glory would be our distraction. and God forbid we would ignore Your glory."
"it occurs to me, as it sometimes does, that this day is over, and will never be lived again, that we are only the sum of days, and when those are spent, we will not come back to this place, to this time, to these people and these colors, and i wonder whether to be sad about this or to be happy, to trust that these hours are meant for some kind of enjoyment, as a kind of gift."
"i analyze too much. i think joy into its coffin. i dont want to think about life anymore; i want to just live life."
"it feels again like we are leaving, like we are leaving who we were, moving into the people we will become"
23 July 2005
and libby was searching high and low
but when we were no where to be found she got really scared tooooo
but the good news is
wubbis comes today!!!
we finally freakin met!
22 July 2005
"there is no fun in having nothing to do- but it is when you have lots to do and dont do it"
i hate doing nothing and i cant stand waiting on hope deferred invitations. the internet has become the bestest of friends- always up to hanging out and is never late.
when i picked up jill at the airport the other day- as i was waiting- i just watched the reunitings of families and friends. hugs and happiness shared. i almost started crying b/c i miss my family and friends that know me and i cant wait for that reunion. its crazy to think that i have only seen them for 2 weeks out of 6 months. im slowly weening myself out of my home- the place i grew up in no longer has that title and i have yet to find where i truly belong- where me and my future husband will make a place for our future kids to grow. as for now i have titled myself -a wanderer. right now its easier to be on the move than to think about being settled, yet i know its what my spirit longs for.
"sometimes the last thing you want comes in first, sometimes the 1st thing you want never comes, i know that waiting is all you can do sometimes" -aqualung
21 July 2005
today was waterfall day! burgess falls!
we drove an hour and some and it was surely worth it! first there were lots of flat rocks to walk on and little baby waterfalls and dave found a little seat where we sat in a cave behind one of them
we had to hike 3/4 mile to get to the mama fall look out spot!
and then more to the bottom of it where we swam right under and climbed the first ledge
this dude was down sun bathing
we didnt look though
on the way back we stopped at a fruit stand for plums, and grapes and headed back
it sure was in the middle of no where and this was the only sign of life
but we were happy
today libby picked me up to go buy super glue, eat popsicles made my mexicans, to take me to my car, and go vintage shopping
i found glasses really close to christa's splurge
later we went to morton's for their amazing chocolate martini's
yesturday was my favorite louby's bday! and an eventful day it was!
after me and becca went job hunting we ran into christa at fido
then met up with libby at frothy monkey thennn i had an amazing italian dinner thanks to these girls
after i met up with everyone at maf's for our weekly tuesday 2 for 1 night.
its my last maf's with jill and kari!
and lou and libby are leaving me again!
sad days are arising with everyone leaving including myself! but my sister will be here in 3 days!!!!!!!!!
19 July 2005
so last night me and jill had a night of sushi and skateboarding!!sushi first
we sat there eating w/ chop sticks in one hand, boards in the other
paid the bill and we were offffff....to a col da sac..ha.
jill's a pro...she took the high roads of magnolia st
even though i look like i should be walking around with a longboard... it was like my second time ever! ha!
and i have scars to prove it
yea im hardcore! i got right back on! jill was very proud of me! i wasnt gonna take kari's advice "if you never try it, youll never get hurt" b/c thats a good way to have a boring life!
18 July 2005
16 July 2005
17The LORD your God in your midst,
The Mighty One, will save;
He will rejoice over you with gladness,
He will quiet you with His love,
He will rejoice over you with singing."