21 June 2010

It’s not what you look at that matters, it’s what you see.
— Henry David Thoreau

16 June 2010

five ghosts
the other day i stayed up all night reading back through my blog. reading the poetry that used to flow so freely from my pen. how succinct and creatively i could explain my surroundings and day to day. though i was impressed with what i can call mine, it also showed me how far i have fallen from that place. how instead of continuing to climb the tower of creativity, instead pushing myself further and further into my eye- my mind - my heart- i have ridden on the wake of the boat that passed by me. and the water has begun to settle. as a matter of fact it has become quite stagnant. i have come to the point of second guessing myself. doubting the legitamacy and impact of my words. i realize this now and i am making steps to regaining my self. this person with in me is coming up for air. reaching for the clouds of potential shaped into 4 letters, R-I-S-K.

03 June 2010

the four agreements: a toltec wisdom book

chapter 6.
the toltec path to freedom: breaking old agreements

'the problem with most people is that they live their lives and never discover that the judge and the victim rule their mind, and therefore they don't have a chance to be free. the first step toward personal freedom is awareness. we need to be aware that we are not free in order to be free. we need to be aware of what the problem is in order to solve the problem.' p.98

'if you are not aware, there is nothing to change. your life is the manifestation of your dream; it is an art. and you can change your life anytime if you aren't enjoying the dream.' p.99

'you are no longer innocent. when you were a child this was not true; you didn't have a choice. but you are no longer a child. now it's up to you to choose what to believe and what not to believe. you can choose to believe in anything, and that includes believing in yourself.' p.106

'you need to go step by step and be patient with yourself because this is a slow process. you cannot expect to break the domestication in one day.' p.109

'if we allow our emotions to deplete our energy, we have no energy to change our life or to give to others.' p.111

the four agreements: a toltec wisdom book

chapter 5.
the fourth agreement: always do your best

'when you do your best you learn to accept yourself. but you have to be aware and learn from your mistakes. learning from your mistakes means your practice, look honestly at the results, and keep practicing. this increases your awareness.' p.81

'action is about living fully. inaction is the way we deny life.' without action upon an idea, there will be no manifestation, no results, and no reward. taking action is being alive. its taking the risk to go out and express your dream' p.82

'we don't need to know or prove anything. just to be, to take a risk and enjoy your life, is all that matters. say no when you want to say no, and yes when you want to say yes. you have the right to be you. you can only be you when you do your best. when you don't do your best you are denying yourself the right to be you. that's a seed that you should really nurture in your mind. you don't need knowledge your great philosophical concepts. you don't need the acceptance of others. you express your own divinity by being alive and by loving yourself and others.' p.85

'everything you have ever learned you have learned through repetition. if you do your best in the search for personal freedom, in the search for self-love, you will discover that it's just a matter of time before you find what you are looking for.' p.86

the four agreements: a toltec wisdom book

chapter 4.
the third agreement: dont make assumptions

'all the sadness and drama you have lived in your life was rooted in making assumptions and taking things personally.' p.64

'we only see what we want to see and hear what we want to hear.' p.65

'we need to justify everything, to explain and understand everything, in order to feel safe. we have millions of questions that need answers because there are so many things that the reasoning mind cannot explain. it is not important if the answer is correct; just the answer itself makes us feel safe. that is why we make assumptions.' p.68

'when we believe something we assume we are right about it to the point that we will destroy relationships in order to defend our position.' p.68

'even before others have a chance to reject us, we have already rejected ourselves. that is the way the human mind works.' p.69

'we have to be what we are, so that we dont have to present a false image.' p.71

'have the courage to ask questions until you are clear as you can be, and even then do not assume you know all there is to know about a given situation.' p.72

the four agreements: a toltec wisdom book

chapter 3.
the second agreement: dont take anything personally

'what causes you to be trapped is what we call personal importance. personal importance, or taking things personally, is the maximum expression of selfishness because we make the assumption that everything is about "me." nothing other people do is because of you. it is because of themselves.' p.48

'even the opinions you have about yourself are not necessarily true; therefore, you dont need to take what you hear in your mind personally.' p.54

'the mitote (mind fog, illusion, a dream where a thousand people talk at the same time, and nobody understands each other) is the reason humans hardly know what they want, how they want it, or when they want it. they dont agree with themselves beacause there are parts of the mind that want one thing, and other parts that want exactly the opposite.' p.56

'someone can intentionally send emotional poison, and if you dont take it personally, you will not eat it. when you dont take the emotional poison, it becomes even worse in the sender, but not in you.' p.59

'you are never responsible for the actions of others; you are only responsible for you.' p.60

the four agreements: a toltec wisdom book

chapter 2.
the first agreement: be impeccable with your word

'it is through your word that you manifest everything. the word is the most powerful tool you have as a human.' p. 26

'the word can set you free, or it can enslave you even more than you know.' p.27

'the human mind is like a fertile ground where seeds are continually being planted. every human mind is fertile, but only for those kinds of seeds it is prepared for.' p.28

'a sin is anything that you do which goes against yourself. when you are impeccable, you taken responsibility for your actions, but you do not judge or blame yourself. self rejection is the biggest sin that you commit.' p.31

'we must being to understand what the word is and what the word does. if you understand the first agreement, be impeccable with your word, you begin to see all the changes that can happen in your life. changes first in the way you deal with yourself, and later in the way you deal with other people, especially those you love most.' p.42

'impeccability of the word will also give you immunity from anyone putting a negative spell on you. you will only receive a negative idea if your mind is fertile ground for that idea.' p.43

'how much you love yourself and how you feel about yourself are directly proportionate to the quality and integrity of your word.' p.44

02 June 2010

the four agreements: a toltec wisdom book

chapter 1.
domestication and the dream of the planet

'we need a great deal of courage to challenge our own beliefs. even if we understand the concept of it not being true, we feel the blame, the guilt, and the shame that occur if we go against these rules.' p.11

'the human is the only animal on earth that pays a thousand times for the same mistake' p.12

'95 percent of the beliefs we have stored in our minds are nothing but lies, and we suffer because we believe all these lies.' p.13

'if you consider hell as a state of mind, then hell is all around us... others can put us into a deeper hell, true. but only if we allow this to happen.' p.14

'we are on an eternal search for the truth because we only believe in the lies we have stored in our mind. we keep searching and searching, when everything is already within us. there is no truth to find. where ever we turn our heads, all we see is the truth, but with the agreements and beliefs we have stored in our mind, we have no eyes for this truth. what blinds us are all those false beliefs we have in our mind' p.15

'we cannot see who we truly are; we cannot see that we are not free' p.16

'that is why humans resist life. to be alive is the biggest fear humans have. death is not the biggest fear we have; our biggest fear is taking the risk to be alive- the risk to be alive and express what we really are. just being ourself is the biggest fear of humans.' p.17

'we are so afraid that somebody else will notice that we are not what we pretend to be.' p.18

'the problem is that you dont accept yourself. humans punish themselves endlessly for not being what they believe they should be. nobody abuses us more than we abuse ourselves. the way we judge ourselves is the worst judge that ever existed.' p.19

'we have the need to be accepted and to be loved by others, but we cannot accept and love ourselves. the more self-love we have, the less we will experience self-abuse.' p.20