19 January 2004

gracefully seeking approval
by lauren d'auria

its like sending a famous person a letter
and gettin back a mass produced postcard
with a stamped autograph on the bottom.
its like "here is a tape recording of my voice,
its not even me on the phone-
nice to meet you!,"
everything is right infront of me
and it is funny how close.
i am making excuses without just reaching out
and my favorite word has become 'yet'.
i am left with a damp sock,
with my toe in the puddle as everyone else drives to the ocean.
i pray to you in poetry
maybe because i dont feel comfortable speaking to you
in any other form then gracefully seeking approval.

16 January 2004

"though you seem so far away
im still here to say
i am yours Lord

when i heard your voice
when you said my name
my heart it yearned"