("this is very reflective in a not so comfortable way. i realized some things about myself that i dont really like, and to come back here to be reminded of all that made me feel really anxious. the epiphany never came. im just as confused now as i was when i got here, and when i returned i wasnt sure that i wanted to be back. there's a darkness inside of me that i'm only now starting to come to grips with and accept. and its starting to scare me." -Ben Gibbard)