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drift away 4:04 Christa black
I'm Not Ready 5:18 Cool Hand Luke
Letters & Drawings 5:25 Damien Jurado
Volcano 4:38 Damien Rice
Ain't That A Kick In The Head 2:24 Dean Martin
you cant always get what you want 7:35 Def leppard
Caught By The River 5:55 Doves
Still Running 2:34 Eastmountainsouth
Switching Off 5:04 Elbow
Sunlight Makes Me Paranoid 4:18 Elefant
Funeral For A Friend (Love Lies Bleeding) 11:08 Elton John
Wonderful Tonight 3:39 Eric clapton
Reach out I'll be there 3:01 Four Tops
Let Go 4:13 Frou Frou
Pretend You're Alive 5:11 Lovedrug
Amour Fou 4:34 Vetiver


" there's a touch of vanity in the holiest of men and women. they see no reason to deny it. and they know that reality bites back if it isnt respected. when i get honest, i admit i am a bundle of paradoxes. i believe and i doubt, i hope and i get discouraged, i love and i hate, i feel bad about feeling good, i feel guilty about not feeling guilty. i am trusting and suspicious. i am honest and i still play games. Aristotle said i am a rational animal. to live by grace means to acknowledge my whole life story, the light side and the dark. in admiting my shadow side i learn who i am and what God's grace means. as Thomas Merton put it, 'a saint is not someone who is good but who experiences the goodness of God.'
we have the power to believe where others deny, to hope where others despair, to love where others hurt. this and so much more is sheer gift; it is not reward for our faithfulness, our generous disposition, or our heroic life of prayer. even our fidelity is a gift. 'if we but turn to God,' said St. Augustine, 'that itself is a gift of God.' my deepest awareness of myself is that i am deeply loved by Jesus Christ and i have dont nothing to earn it or deserve it."
-brennan manning (ragamuffin gospel)