" I suppose I do have one unembarrassed passion. I want to know how it feels to care about something passionately. " -adaption

An alternative is long overdue, an alternative that always places relationship with God at the center of all of our realities. We need an alternative that never elevates God’s will above God. And we need an alternative that leaves us feeling as though we’ve returned to the heart of scripture and historical Christianity, not an alternative that leaves us guessing whether the scriptures would echo the same.


Understanding God’s Will , written by Kyle Lake, will be available October 2004 from Relevant Books.

'the night and the shadows of the night will not linger, and them orning shall soon find us if you will but stay with us'
'He did not utterly condemn the liar or the theif or the murderer, but He did utterly condemn the hypocrite whose face is masked and whose hand is gloved.'
'the earth was fragrant, and like the daughter of a king at her wedding feast, she wore all her jewels. and the sky was her bridegroom.'
'perhaps he is paying with his sorrow the price for your passing joy.'
'when you would pray, let your longing pronounce the words.'
'the sound of His voice never descended to emptiness, for the memory of mean keeps that which his mind takes no care to keep.'
'know you not, the slave in His dreaming would always be master; and the weakling would be a lion? the Galilean was a conjuror and a deceiver, a man who forgave the sins of all the sinners that He might hear Hail and Hosanna from their unclean mouths; and who fed the faint heart of the hopeless and the wretched that He might have hears for His voice and a retinue at His command. He broke the sabbath with those who break that He might gain the support of the lawless; and He spoke ill of our high preist that He might win attention in the sanhedrim, and be opposition increase His fame.'
'His blood shall run upon the earth, but they themselves shall know the wounds and the pain thereof, and they shall be baptized in their tears until they are cleansed of their sins.'
'the lilies and the brier live but a day, yet that day is eternity spent in freedom.'
'behold the brook and listen to its music. forever shall it seek the sea, and though it is for ever seeking, it sings it mystery from noon to noon. would you seek the Father as the brook seeks the sea?'
'you and your neighbor are two seeds sown in the field. together you grow and together you shall sway in the wind. and neither of you shall claim the field. for a seed on its way to growth claims not even its own ecstasy.'
'He spoke of leaves that sing only when blown upon the wind.'
'only in our aloneness may we visit the land of His aloneness'
'He loved us with tender love. His heart was a winepress. you and i could approach with a cup and drink therefrom.'

-kahlil gibran (Jesus the son of man)

"let ignorance reproduce itself until it is weary of its own offspring.
"let the blind lead the blind to the pitfall.
"and let the dead bury the dead till the earth be choked with its own bitter fruit."
-kahil gibran (Jesus the son of man)

relevantmagazine.com

-'my body has already set up an appointment with the travel agent in search of a different paradise, but my instincts tell me im missing the point.'
-'im not afraid to compete. its just the opposite, im afraid i will compete..just because im so horribly conditioned to accept everybody elses values, and just because i like applause and people to rave about me, doesnt make it right..im sick of not having the courage to an absolute nobody' [franny and zooey by J.D. sallinger]
-'sometimes its the constant wondering and the state of limbo that's the real killer, isnt it? you can deal with whats in front of your face. its the inbetween stages in life that seem to such you dry.'
- 'i dont know whats God's will is exactly. how much of my life do i have to decide? how much is up to Him? thats what im still trying to figure out. and im learning to become comfortable with the words i dont know. '
-'God wasnt a magic 8ball. sometimes God is very much silent. all i can do is let go of my strict ideologies of how God functions and blindly trust Him and embrace Him as a God of mystery.'
-'the place where God calls you is the place where your deep gladness and the worlds deep hunger meet.'
-'the point in life is not really the goal or destination, but the journey.'
-' we may look back over the past few years of our lives and see an endless cycle of individuals who have come and gone, come and gone, come and gone. and the exit from our lives wasnt because they moved away. it was because our friendship discovered the edge where vulnerability and insecurity collide and neither could handle the humanness. God's purpose , then, could involve a whole new way of doing relationships where we shed superficial or volatile, two-week relationships..in exchange for sustained, intentional, grace-filled, clumsy, humorous friendships.'

"the goal is to come to the end of our own power. Just as Christ came to the cross without a scrap of His divine power, so we live our lives in a state of weakness, for only there can God truly reveal His power in us. die to everything we hope people will admire about us, and any personal desire for power, fame , wealth, public speaking or influence. in the places where we are angry and depressed, abandoned without hope or simply confused about how to think or believe, that is an opening for God to be present among us. it doesnt matter how much you dress yourself up, how well you learn to hide your sin from people, better for you to come out, and actually better, and i really do mean better--like you will be more filled with joy--to be able to say, 'you know what? know me for who i really am. im completely exposed. heres my sin; heres my Savior; ive got nothing to hide. ive got nothing to be ashamed of. ive got no fear. im totally filled with joy because im liberated, 'cause im exposed, but im not scared. and thats because i know that Gods favor for me is based on Jesus. im not scared to tell you who i really am. im not scared to tell you what my sins really are, not just the ones im comfortable with, but my real sins. im not afraid to tell you, and thats because im not condemned by them anymore, and thats because i believe Jesus is sufficient" - relevantmagazine.com

some song lyrics and serman quotes i jotted into my flip pad

'we use our minds and seem to be mindless' -chip bueler
'when you dont have what is above and beyond you then you will always be governed by what is in and around you' -chip bueler
'i think im falling in like with you' -unknown
'hello miscomunication, im back' -anathallo
'dont hold people to moments in time-- people change' -?
'we have strongholds in our life and we mistake them for personality traits' -?
'your confession needs to be as public as the sin was. dont dump a secret sin into someone's soul for it to be an unnecisary burden' -?
'just because theyre shy doesnt mean they dont think' -me
'greetings in brail should describe everything because you cant see anything' -?
'our joy doesnt come from how well we hide our sin from eachother and our joy doesnt come from how secure we feel because of what we do correctly--and scared to death, looking over our shoilder all the time, because of all the things we do that we know are sinful. our joy comes from the fact that we are people exposed, and sinful, and desperate, and yet simultaneously, as martin luther might tell us, saints, sons and daughters, because of our inheritance in Jesus.' -relevantmagazine.com

interpret this verse

Proverbs 27
5 Open rebuke is better than secret love.

i love that so many ppl are responding to my tanning bed entry and proving my statement wrong. it is good b/c i am learning something. i learned that even tho i have been thinkin so much about how i hate the western world and being in this mindset- that we are the center of the universe- it seems i myself am guilty of the very mindset, proved w/ that impulsive entry. i always tend to forget that around the world there are and can be good things that come out of, one example, tanning bed use. tho here it might be dumb,the fact that it is winter 90 percent of the time in other places would make sense to use one. or light therapy is another good thing. i need to have my mindset broken and your comments are helping me. thanx again. i like that 'blogger' added updated their site to beable to receive comments.

life is so interesting. how God uses so many situations to sharp and mold us when we dont even know or realize it. how i can get so frustrated by the smallest things, then feel bad and then realize- its ok for me to have feelings right? i dont want to be selfish but where do you draw the line of being walked on? how do i take a situation and know from the start that it is a test? i duno..but i dont have to..God does so im not worryin about how things are gonna play out

'dont worry about anything, instead pray about everything'