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this is where all the money was won...the black jack tables!


im so lucky to have such a great dad!

can you patch my jeans Peggy Ann -
Just a little stitch to mend the hole
He has torn
If you can

Maybe I got too set in my ways
He says she reminds him of me
When we first met
In those early days...

The sexiest thing is trust
I wake up to find
The pirates have come
Typing up along your coast
How was I to know
The pirates have come
Between Rebecca's
Beneath your firmaments
I have worshipped
In the Jamaica Inn
In the Jamaica Inn

With the gales
My little boat was tossed
How was I to know
That you'd sent her
With a lantern
To bring me in

"Are you positive this is a friend?"
The captain grimaced,
"Those are cliffs of rock ahead
If I'm not mistaken."

-tori amos

p.s.
whoa i miss her

'Look at us we're beautiful,
All the people push and pull but,
Let's just go out and ride,
Talk about the things we've tried
Look at us we're beautiful
All the people push and pull but,
They'll never get inside,
We got too much to hide'
-moby

"God wants to be wanted" -tozer

God wants to be loved. He wants to be a priority to someone. from cover to cover, from beginning to end, the cry of God's heart is, "why won't you choose me?"

God longs to be desired. just as women long to be desired. this is not some weakness or insecurity on the part of women. "take me for longing, or leave me behind" - allison krauss. God feels the same way

one of the deepest ways a woman bears the image of God is in her mystery, 'something to be explored.' 'it is the glory of God to conceal a matter. to search out a matter is the glory of kings' (prov 25:2)

God yearns to be known. but he wants to be sought after by those who would know him. God does not throw himself at any passerby. if you would know him -you must love him; you must seek him with your whole heart. 'you cannot simply have me. you must seek my, pursue me. i wont let you in unless i know you love me.'

-captivating

so great to be home! amy got a freakin amazing karaoke machine and so me, erin and rachel sang all night to boys II men




we made a trip to walmart for keds and brown buttons to sew all over them.
we got a bit distracted



yesturday i went to hang out w/ my erin conners all day in dc and we ofcourse went shopping at urban outfitters and h&m.

i had to take this picture for libby!


then me and my dago, daniel went to the ben folds/rufus wainwright concert!

im home safe and snug and im gonna hug my puppy all day long

"everybody , every person has to leave, has to change like seasons; they have to or they die. the seasons remind me that i must keep changing, and i want to change because it is God's way."

"i want to keep my soul fertile for the changes, so this keep getting born in me, so things keep dying when it is time for things to die. i want to keep walking away from the person i was a moment ago, because a mind was made to figure things out, not to read the same page recurrently"

"everything we were is no more, and what we will become, will become what was. this is from where story stems; the stuff of its construction lying at our feet like cut strips of philosophy. i sometimes look into the endless heavens, the cosmos of which we cant find the edge, and ask God what it means. did you really do all this to dazzle us? do you really keep it shifting, rolling round the pinions to stave off boredom? God forbid we Your glory would be our distraction. and God forbid we would ignore Your glory."

"it occurs to me, as it sometimes does, that this day is over, and will never be lived again, that we are only the sum of days, and when those are spent, we will not come back to this place, to this time, to these people and these colors, and i wonder whether to be sad about this or to be happy, to trust that these hours are meant for some kind of enjoyment, as a kind of gift."

"i analyze too much. i think joy into its coffin. i dont want to think about life anymore; i want to just live life."

"it feels again like we are leaving, like we are leaving who we were, moving into the people we will become"

-don miller

yesturday me and lou got lost in the forest and the unknown shadow monster was approaching quick

and libby was searching high and low

but when we were no where to be found she got really scared tooooo

but the good news is
wubbis comes today!!!


p.s.
we finally freakin met!

ive realized something and that is that the spirit of the age and the biggest stronghold on my generation is the so-called disorder, ADD. downtime and much needed relaxation and alone time is looked at and counted close to feelings of worthlessness by many.

"there is no fun in having nothing to do- but it is when you have lots to do and dont do it"

i hate doing nothing and i cant stand waiting on hope deferred invitations. the internet has become the bestest of friends- always up to hanging out and is never late.

when i picked up jill at the airport the other day- as i was waiting- i just watched the reunitings of families and friends. hugs and happiness shared. i almost started crying b/c i miss my family and friends that know me and i cant wait for that reunion. its crazy to think that i have only seen them for 2 weeks out of 6 months. im slowly weening myself out of my home- the place i grew up in no longer has that title and i have yet to find where i truly belong- where me and my future husband will make a place for our future kids to grow. as for now i have titled myself -a wanderer. right now its easier to be on the move than to think about being settled, yet i know its what my spirit longs for.

"sometimes the last thing you want comes in first, sometimes the 1st thing you want never comes, i know that waiting is all you can do sometimes" -aqualung

today was waterfall day! burgess falls!

we drove an hour and some and it was surely worth it! first there were lots of flat rocks to walk on and little baby waterfalls and dave found a little seat where we sat in a cave behind one of them

we had to hike 3/4 mile to get to the mama fall look out spot!

and then more to the bottom of it where we swam right under and climbed the first ledge
this dude was down sun bathing

we didnt look though


on the way back we stopped at a fruit stand for plums, and grapes and headed back



it sure was in the middle of no where and this was the only sign of life

but we were happy